Thoughts and Pondering

It has been a weird couple of days. Although I know why. Things happened this weekend that I probably shouldn't have done. Although I don't regret anything, I wonder why I feel so incomplete? 

Maybe because it's not what I wanted and finding out is a little hard to deal with. I had a dream, too about the same person. I was so happy in the dream so is it about him that I can't let go, or the feeling? It's hard to differentiate. 

Now I'm having a hard time to find some direction. In anything, really. I've decided to try to abolish everything and I don't know if I can really do it because I'm such an emotional person. In order to avoid the pain, I think I'm willing to try a lot. 

Comparison has got me weak, unhappiness has taken a hold and I need to get my life back. 

Someone, help.