How do you deal with it when it hurts so much? How does it work when it clearly doesn't? I just want to get lost in everything. Absolutely everything. You're frustrating me. Why can't it just be for my sake?
Why am I so dependent? Why do I over think so much? Why can't I be the type to just have fun? My brain has been completely taken over by the negative, by the crazy, by the insanity. But at the same time, it has not. I don't want to deal with this anymore. And yet, why do I care so much to the point that it hurts?
It's tiring. I'm tired. Perhaps this is just a rant of the not so sober mind.
